Life – one big circle. You are born, you go to school, you get a job, you get married, you start a family, you retire from work, you die.
How boring! Have you ever wanted to screw the circle of life and do things a little bit differently?
I do, on a regular basis, but life has a funny way of engulfing you in this big circle. When I was younger, I never wanted to get married. I never wanted children. I wanted to be a successful woman who could stand on her own two feet and to heel with the circle of life that we were taught at school!
How funny it is, that now I am happily married trying to have a baby. I could never have imagined the situation I am in now, fifteen years ago!
So what is it that changes the way your life pans out? How do you go from a snotty teenager rebelling against everybody who dares order you around, to wanting to be a mature adult with marriage and babies in mind!
Life has changed so dramatically for me since meeting my now husband. I have suddenly turned from a twenty year old girl, who partied the night away, drank too much, spent too much and rebelled too much, to a twenty-one year old woman with a husband to love and babies to make. What the hell happened to my life? How did it all change for me?
Was there ever a point in your life where you got bored of being who you were and decided to change? I can’t remember the exact point in which I changed from an aggressive girl to a responsible woman. I now have friends that have babies and I find myself wanting to be a part of that group. I want to be able to get up in the morning and get my baby changed and feed it and cuddle it and play with it. I don’t want to be the selfish me anymore, spending my money on whatever I wanted, buying things for the sake of buying things.
My life has changed, and it was all because of my other half. To be honest, I don’t think he has changed in the slightest, but he is only nineteen. Perhaps it was when I hit the age of twenty-one that I realized I was suddenly an adult? Perhaps the same thing will happen to him too?
He’s the reason that I want children. He’s such a good guy, and he’d make a fantastic dad and I can say, in all honesty, that I never thought that about any of my previous boyfriends. Perhaps I met “the one!”
I just hope and pray that this isn’t what people call, “getting old!” I don’t think I am getting old, I just think that I have reached a stage in my life where I am starting to look at things slightly differently. Things make sense now that didn’t when I was younger. There are also things that no longer make sense! I guess this what they call a stage in the circle of life – getting older and responsible, wanting to get married and start a family. If I had known it would have felt this good when I was younger, I wouldn’t have been so against the idea!
